Eh. I wouldn't say a lot has happened. More or less it was just a overwhelming situation. I'll explain though later.
First off, I want to talk about what happened three days ago (since it's Sunday now). It's good news lol.
Suzuki and I are now students in college. Just need to do a few more things and that's that.
We actually got to meet one of our Professor's there and he was easy to talk to so I know I'm going to enjoy his class.
Although, we both do feel nervous. Being new to this big change can be terrifying haha.
Ah well. At least we will never really have to do that whole registering part again. That was horrible.
Well, that's all for that day. I didn't take pictures, sadly, but oh well.
Now, I'll talk about what happened two days ago.
It was supposed to be special because my cousin came home after being away for college for so long. He wanted to surprise the family so no one was supposed to know except our grandma. She had to tell us though because our mom had asked if we could switch days and our grandma knew that if she didn't tell us at that point, we wouldn't go. We ended up helping out with our cousin's plans though lol.
I have some pictures of that.
This was when our mom was dropping us off to our grandma's house before picking our cousin up.
It was insanely hot so that entire car ride was enough to make me drench the back of my shirt!
And it was only about 15 to 30 minutes long. xD
I always sit on the right side so this is what I see almost everyday.
Although, it's usually green-er. Summer dried it up lol.
Ehh. Traffic.
My window was up so can't see the actual blue of the sky lol.
I should've rolled it down. Baka.
The stupid wall was in the way loool.
Now I only took one photo but this was when we were waiting for our cousin to get his bags.
And I couldn't resist after seeing this:
Suzuki and I laughed pretty hard.
And then we finally reached home and managed to hide our cousin in our storage room while we were trying to get everyone outside. And since we were trying to act as natural as possible... the family took foreveeer to move outside. xD
But after the surprise, everyone was super happy.
I actually wish I could've felt the same way.
Instead, I ended up breaking down in tears. Of course, I wouldn't shamelessly do it in front of my family so I went to my room, closed the door, and turned off the lights.
Suzuki came in and we talked. I honestly can't remember too much because I was just all over the place. It wasn't anyone's fault really, but more like I was just finally letting loose.
Even my grandma came in and heard me out. It was all sort of embarrassing and stupid still for having to be such a wreck on such a special day.
Shortly after my grandma left, our dad came in. He was one of the reasons why I broke down so Suzuki told him to go away. He did but came back. By then, I came to my senses and told them it's alright basically.
Then, all three of just... talked. I got to speak my mind out and he listened. Then, Suzuki said what was on her mind and he listened. After, he spoke and finally started to be a bit more open about his past and we listened. It was... nice.
I mean, after all that fighting for so many years... it was a nice change for once.
Although, Suzuki and I both agree that it's not easy to suddenly trust him again.
Anyway... so yesterday, our dad took us out to go get some ICEEs. Just us three.
I had asked my dad if we could hang out without his wife.
He said okay but then tried to say "I want you to get to know her though."
He said okay but then tried to say "I want you to get to know her though."
At that point, I ended up blurting out "But we have to get to know you first."
I had to admit it felt good to say that. It was true after all.
So that was a nice recovery from my awkward burst of emotions lol.
And even though Suzuki said "Don't feel stupid." And how I should speak up more often rather than closing myself up...
I still feel stupid lol. Not like depressed-stupid but silly-stupid. Like, I can't believe what happened.
And it's difficult still. I don't want to cause inconveniences anymore.
If anything, I want to just feel this heavy weight be lifted already without having to bother anyone.
But I will try anyway. It would be bad to have another episode lol.
Haaa. I'm actually supposed to be working on a drawing.
Unlike others, I have to do this one so I'm trying to at least put the base colors in.
I'm just so tired lol. But I won't give up easily. (Suzuki gave up too easily lol. Just kidding.)
Ahhh. Well, that's all for now. I better get back to the drawing.
Until then. Have a laugh while you're at it.